Book Review – Girl in Need of a Tourniquet by Merri Lisa Johnson


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A memoir of a Borderline Personality.

I’m sure it is obvious to my regular readers why I would chose to read this book.

Girl in need of a Tourniquet is the personal memoirs of Merri Lisa Johnson, or Lisa as she refers to herself within the pages, and how she came to discover and live with having Borderline Personality Disorder.

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*COMPETITION TIME* – Win a FREE BPD Book! – Diary Drawings: Mental Illness and Me


My review of Diary Drawings: Mental Illness and Me by Bobby Brown has been published on Mind’s website.  To celebrate that I am getting ‘out there’ with my writing now (see published work) I thought I would run a little ‘giveaway’ competition for my readers.  I have an extra copy of the book I reviewed and you have the chance to win it here…

So, head over to Mind and check out my review so you can answer the following question and you could be in with a chance to win a copy of the book ‘Diary Drawings:Mental Illness and Me’ by Bobby Brown.

Question:

In the review which image do I say is my favourite?

To enter complete the form below with your answer and details.  I will draw the winner at random from all entries on Sunday 18th September.

Thank you and GOOD LUCK! :D

Rules:

Only one entry per person, multiple entries will be treated as a single entry.

Decision is final.

No prize alternatives available.

The prize is a copy of the book ‘Diary Drawings: Mental Illness and Me’ By Bobby Brown.

Winner will be contacted by email on or after the 18th September to provide their address for delivery of prize – please add crystalbear96@hotmail.com to your ‘safe’ addresses to avoid winning notification getting lost in your spam/junk filters

Book Review – Delirium by Lauren Oliver


If love was a disease would you want to be cured?

Delirium is another young adult book that I read as a result of reading a chapter sample in a sampler collection I picked up whilst at the London Film and Comic Con earlier this year. there were five book extracts in the sampler and I bought all of them, but this is the first one I’ve read.

The book is set in a future governed by ‘evaluators’ who treat people like lab rats as they are analyzed and rated then cured of the disease ‘amor deliria nervosa’ – Love.  the procedure does more than just cure you of love, it makes you incapable of strong desires and you change so much, old habits and friends are forgotten, gone forever. Everything from your education, partner, marriage,  to children and job are regulated and the Book of SHH (Safety, Health and Happiness) once you turn 18 and have the ‘procedure’ – there is no such thing as freedom of choice.

Set in a society closed off to the world, segregated boys and girls, cured and uncured.  It’s like something historic and wrong but this is the future, not the past.

The story follows Lena as she approaches her 18th Birthday; she is looking forward to her ‘procedure’ with nervous anticipation, counting down the days.  She wants to be cured of the disease having witnessed how it destroyed her mother, who pined for Lena’s father so much after he died of cancer when Lena was just a baby, in the end Lena’s mother committed suicide rather than endure a fourth attempt at the procedure to ‘correct’ her of the disease. In addition her aunt died after her marriage to her sympathizer (supporter of the uncured) led to trouble for the family and Lena’s Uncle disappeared, leaving Lena’s young cousins to live with Lena and another Aunt. Despite her excitement at the procedure Lena is not looking forward to some of the associated things – the pairing, marriage, parenting and most of all the wedding night. But first she has to get through her evaluation – the biggest test of your life, where you are assessed for suitability and pairing.  Her first attempt at the evaluation is brought to an abrupt end when a major disruption ensues, which ends up being a blessing as she was blowing it big time! In the meantime she is worrying about the increasingly different behaviour of her best friend Hana, who has always been different but now even more so.  And then theres a boy… Alex, an uncured, who comes into Lena’s life just when she really doesn’t need a new distraction…

I like the change in Lena when she falls for Alex, well it’s not so much a change as a realisation of what she has always known but was conditioned to believe was wrong.

Hana is a great character who brings out the best and worst in Lena, and the love between her and Lena as such close friends shines through although I doubt even they realised that their feelings for each other were a form of love.

One character I would like to see explored more is young Gracie, Lena’s silent cousin who seems to have great hidden depths…

I really enjoyed the new world created in this book, although it is not one I would like to live in! The ending is a bit of a cliffhanger, with an ultimate sacrifice for Love (a word which is also banned in Lena’s world) but a lot of unanswered questions – thankfully there is a second book due out next year, so I can find out what happens next.

Thank you for reading!  If you have enjoyed reading this post please share it with others who may be interested and I always enjoy receiving feedback and comments :)

30 Day Blog Challenge – Day 27


One good thing that happened today – I have had an idea on how to sort out my housing problem, fingers crossed I can get it sorted tomorrow!

Song Challenge – a song that you wish you could play… I would love to be able to play ‘In the End’ by Linkin Park :)

Film Challenge – A film you think is overrated – Oh god, there are so many! errrmmm The Harry Potter movies probably stand out the most to me, watchable but not as ‘amazingly’ wonderful as people profess!

Status Challenge – Describe yourself when under the influence – depends on my mood before I start drinking, usually I’m a ‘happy’ drunk, flirty, loud, and dancing like a mad thing till dawn… but occasionally if I am already not happy I will be the sad crying, vomiting drunk, whose night ends early!

Book Challenge – A Book you would write if you had all the resources – I’m already trying to write it… my life story! I guess I ‘have’ all the resources except ‘time’!? lol

Photo Challenge – A picture of someone you love with a passion – Ahhh another one of those difficult ones, I think I’ll stick with the kids (again) after all they are the most important people in my life! :D

30 Day Blog Challenge – Day 17


One good thing that happened today – I had fun playing pool and am actually improving my game :D

Photo challenge – A picture of someone you have ever been mean to and regretted. Difficult, I don’t ‘do’ regrets, I’m sorry for things but regrets, no – we learn from our mistakes but if you regret it you ‘really’ shouldn’t have done it in the first place!! So a picture of someone I have been mean to and I am ‘sorry’ I was mean to… My sister

Book Challenge – Book turned movie and completely desecrated – can I cheat again!? this is a series of books that was turned into a TV show and they ‘completely’ desecrated the whole series, the show was atrocious!! :( The Blood Pact/Trail/Debt/Price/lines series by Tanya Huff

Film Challenge – The most boring film you’ve ever seen – ohh yes for a vampire fan I actually fell asleep during this one I was soooo bored! The 1992 film Dracula starring Gary Oldman

Status Challenge – A guilty pleasure… oooh so many to choose from Ann Summers toys/outfits! haha

Song challenge – a song that you hear often on the radio – currently hearing ‘Born this way’ by Lady Gaga a lot! Probably too much!