Book Review – An Umbrella for Alex


An Umbrella for Alex – Image via PDAN.org

This review is long overdue, I should have done it ages ago, but life got in the way… still I got there in the end!

An Umbrella for Alex is the first book published by PDAN – the Personality Disorder Awareness Network.

“The purpose of this book is to provide appropriate and encouraging information for young children whose parents might be suffering from emotion dysregulation or Borderline Personality Disorder.”

I was asked to review the book because of my blog and having BPD myself… Continue reading

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Ending relationships – Is it BPD?


I hate you - don't leave me.  Image by Kaoxita - Deviant Art.com  (http://www.deviantart.com/art/I-hate-you-don-t-leave-me-102465289)

I hate you – don’t leave me.
Image by Kaoxita – Deviant Art.com
(http://www.deviantart.com/art/I-hate-you-don-t-leave-me-102465289)

A diagnosis of BPD is not something to be taken lightly, it is life altering, in many ways.

Increasingly I am finding that people are contacting me through my blog regarding their relationship difficulties. Mainly the end of a relationship that has been quite turbulent or toxic, most often the person breaking off the relationship in these scenarios is a woman, and nearly every message includes reference to a concern that the ‘ex’ in question had/has BPD. I apologise if you have recently written to me about something like this, you may not like what you are about to read, but it’s nothing personal about anyone who has contacted me, just a general observation and attempt to clarify things a little…

I recognise that writing this post is likely to bring a few attacks and trolls around, but I need to share it anyway, I’m ready for the hate mail!

I think it is time to address a few key points about BPD and relationships…

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Road to Recovery

Borderline Personality Disorder, Recovery and Me in 2013


Road to Recovery

Road to Recovery

October was the last time I posted here, and my stats sure show an understandably huge decline in readership – why come here if there is nothing new to read after all. A double-edged sword…

I miss the camaraderie of conversing with my fellow bloggers and keeping up with how everyone is getting on but at the same time that I do not ‘need’ my blog and reading others as a crutch to help me cope with what is still a very busy, emotional and challenging life is a clear indication of how much better I am now than I was.

That said, this may end up being a post of more than one part, as I don’t want to bore you senseless droning on for hours, but I do have a lot to cover in this long overdue update. I’m going to start with the most important topic (blog wise) BPD after all it was writing about living with Borderline Personality Disorder that really caused my blog to take off and draw people in so for my readers knowing how much this effects me now is certainly the most important thing they are interested in – for hope, inspiration and encouragement that they too can recover, so here goes… Continue reading

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Sibling Relationships when you have BPD


Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness

Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness (Photo credit: Gemma.E.Taylor)

Authors note – I originally wrote this piece at the request of Randi Kreger to be posted on Psychology Today, but she decided against posting it as it was too ‘personal’ and also did NOT portray me (the BPD) as having had a negative impact on my sisters – which is what is generally portrayed as the effect we have. My experience show’s that just because we share the BPD label does NOT mean that everyone with BPD has a negative impact on their families, as you will see…

I’ve read a few tales of the difficulties of living in the shadow of a Borderline sibling and they all sound like something so unfamiliar to me as to be untrue. I’m not saying they are untrue, I’m just saying the degree of misery and hurt that a borderline sibling has inflicted upon those lives is something I cannot relate to at all.

Before you all start ranting at me I just want to say I know that these things are true of some BPD’s, some of us DO make the lives of our siblings hell, a nightmare full of abuse and mistreatment. I am sad that this happens, it is just not my experience, I am not the type of BPD who make’s people’s lives miserable, I take all my hurt, pain and problems out on myself not on other people…

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If you keep doing what you’ve always done, You’ll keep getting what you’ve always got…


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English: This is a graphic representation of the “Stages of Change” in the Transtheoretical Model of Behavior Change. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Never a truer word spoken…

Hi, readers how’s it going?

I’ve not been writing for some time now. It’s odd how despite writing being one of the biggest loves in my life I go through periods where I have nothing to say, no words to type and can go ‘silent’ for months on end. I’m not saying I’m back now, cause this may just be a one-off update post, even I don’t know at the moment.

So, why the title? Well it’s like this…. Continue reading