Natural Treatments for Borderline Personality Disorder – Guest Post by Virginia


St Johns wortSerotonin levels are most directly responsible for the intensity of our moods and how positive our demeanour is overall. While not every mood swing can be attributed to an offset chemical response, there is always a possibility that there could be something off-kilter in that area of our health.

While there are plenty of prescription drugs for this, it can often seem unnecessary or even unsafe to take a prescription drug for what many would deem to be simply irritability or poor behaviour.
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Poem – Don’t…


The Infernal Depths of Hatred

The Infernal Depths of Hatred (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Don’t get close to me
It hurts

Don’t love me
It hurts

Don’t want me
I’ll run away fast

Don’t care for me
I’ll run away fast

Use me
It feeds my self-hatred

Abuse me
It feeds my self-hatred

Take advantage of me
I need it

Lust after me
I need it

I’m broken
and this is how I cope

Think it’s about time someone threw out a rope
To save me…

Guest Post by Clara – Be gentle with me…


FRIENDS

FRIENDS (Photo credit: [Share the Word])

Fellow High-functioning BPD sufferer Clara was inspired by my recent poem Finger on the Trigger and decided to write her own poem using the format I had used. I offered to share it here for her as she does not have her own blog but wanted to know what I thought of her poem, I loved it and I’m sure you will too…

It’s about the painful push-pull that you can get in friendships between two people who both have bpd, something I’m sure a lot of us can relate to…

Recovering from BPD – Self-sabotage and heading for another crisis


BPD Objects

BPD Objects (Photo credit: Vinally2010)

I was doing well, my recovery from BPD was progressing, so I told myself, but recently I noticed that something wasn’t quite ‘right’ and as usual identifying what exactly was wrong was hard.

I think I may have been lying to myself for a while, I think I may have been masking again. Falling apart inside, outside appearing to be doing well. I think I am self-sabotaging…

I have been slowly picking at trying to work out exactly why I am slipping off the recovery tracks and what has caused this, then yesterday I was replying to an email I had received from someone about BPD and as I wrote my own situation started spilling out and I had a realisation about what is going wrong and why…

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The Angel and Devil on my shoulder – A BPD defence mechanism for relationships – Part 1


Combining the Angel and Devil to become a whole person

Combining the Angel and Devil to become a whole person

When you live with BPD everything is black and white, there are no shades of grey.

Good or evil, nothing in between.

Everyone jokes about having an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other and them being stuck in the middle, with BPD the difference is there is no you in the middle, you are the angel and the devil at constant war with yourself to control you thoughts, feelings and emotions… it is a defence mechanism doomed to failure…

How does this impact on forming romantic relationships?

Let me take you on a journey through my world…

Today we’ll examine the Devil’s perspective, I’ll reveal the angel in another post…

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