Crawling back from the pit…


DEPRESSION

That’s it, the end of an era – not that it lasted all that long, 12 months to be precise. I’ve been made redundant… it’s not like I didn’t see it coming – a recession, a merger, my role being the least important… It was inevitable, and nothing personal – but it still hurts like hell…

Sure I have plans, but who knows how long they will take to bear fruits. In the meantime I’m back to the jobless struggle, like so many others.

I gave up so much for my little part-time Office Manager job, including my marriage (yes there were other factors in that too, but…) in the end it boiled down to a ‘simple’ ( or should that be difficult?) choice – 8 hours a week doing a little job I loved and which had given my life meaning after so long (16 years) wondering if I would ever have more, or, my marriage, which was also having other problems… I chose my job and in the end that choice came to have far more serious repercussions for me than I ever imagined, but we have to live with the choices we make, right or wrong, for better or worse (hmm, that line reminds me of something…oops!)

Other than keeping my job some other good did come from my decision; both me and my kids became happier, more independent, well-rounded individuals. Also, i have a wonderful new man in my life, who is mega supportive and keen to help me succeed (being mega successful himself) and hopefully he is as glad to have me as I am to have him – you would have to ask him about that! ;P

Anyway, What am I going to do with myself now I’m out of work? I hear you say… Well as I’ve mentioned in earlier blogs I plan to start my own business, initially my first job is helping my boyfriend set up his business alongside mine, whilst also training in Quality Assurance, taking us both through a variety of ISO standards (9001, 14001, 27000, and 17021 for starters) to gain experience that will be invaluable when trying to attract my own customers, helping small businesses achieve these standards as a qualified auditor and accredited certified body for ISO 🙂 It will take a while before I reach that level but hopefully I will be able to gain enough experience along the way to make a success of it – after all not many people enjoy writing policies, processes and procedures, so I’m sure there will be plenty of small businesses I can offer a few hours to here and there to help get them up to speed (and add to my own experience bank at the same time)!

I already have tons of training courses booked up and setting up TWO businesses is sure to fill up most of my time, however, I also intend to have a bit of selfish me time for a change – something that has been neglected far too long! I’m going to join a theatre group… singing has always been a passion of mine but I’ve never really had the confidence to do anything about it (other than recording two songs, which really do not demonstrate me at my best, but still…) and watching Glee has inspired me to chase the dream at little, along with my annual plan to audition for X-factor (I’ve missed the auditions two years in a row now, and don’t intend to miss them this year!!) I don’t expect, or even want, to become a star, I just want to improve my confidence and be able to get up on stage in front of my family and friends maybe as part of a musical production, and feel proud of what I can do 🙂

So, there you have it my plans for crawling back to some semblance of a normal life. What are you doing with your life? I would be interested to find out… 🙂

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5 comments on “Crawling back from the pit…

  1. Hi Showard,
    Sorry for asking, is that new wonderful man you found still in your life? I know it might be too personal and you don’t have to answer. Best,

    Enrique

    • Hi Enrique,

      It’s okay, that’s not too personal. He is indeed still in my life, it’s been a tough journey but we are still going strong and are engaged now 🙂

      Sharon

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