So, I hadn’t written anything to post today as I was so busy trying to sort myself out with the useless UK Mental Health System yesterday. Although I have three posts part written in draft and numerous ideas for posts ready to start writing I just didn’t have the time to actually sort any of these out last night/this morning. Just goes to show even my mega organised way of doing things falls foul of real life at times! Although I was actually expecting something like this to happen this week as I mentioned in Sunday’s ROW80 check-in that I thought I would struggle to meet my goals this week. I knew I was going to be working on ‘me’ as a priority this week rather than bloggging, writing and art. Anyway, as a result this is today’s post…
It’s not much, but I wanted to share another song which says things that mean something to me. It is a song that I have only just recently discovered, even though it was actually a hit back in the mid 1990’s. I really should have heard it back then, I have no idea how I missed it, being such a music junkie as I am! apparently the reason I am hearing it on the radio all the time now is because Frankie Cocozza sang it on X-factor (badly) before he was thrown out. Anyway screw his version, haven’t heard it don’t want to, the real thing though is awesome!!
So, the song is Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls (video below). I wanted to share the lyrics too, as it is these that hold meaning to me – as well as making a truly awesome song!
The first verse makes me think of how much a certain special person means to me, and how much I want to be close to them –
And I’d give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t want to go home right now
The second verse also makes me think of this person and how scared I am of things coming to an end…
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t want to miss you tonight
Then we get to the chorus, now this really makes me think of the controversy of my life, the first two lines relate to my dissociation, desires to hide away from everything and how I feel so few people can really understand me, but the second two lines show the desperate desire to be seen, loved, known and wanted…
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Then we get to the final verse, here we see the BPD emotional instability, hurting so bad even tears will no longer flow, nothing feeling real and feeling so numb that self-harm is the only way to ‘feel’ anything real…
And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
What songs resonate with your life?
Do the lyrics say what you cannot voice?
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