2013 My Year in Review

IMG_0595Following on from my update on my recovery from BPD; where I mentioned the how the difficulties achieving and maintaining recovery are compounded by unrelenting crisis, I will now share an insight into some of the challenges/crises I have faced in the past year that make my achievement all the more remarkable… Continue reading


If you keep doing what you’ve always done, You’ll keep getting what you’ve always got…

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English: This is a graphic representation of the “Stages of Change” in the Transtheoretical Model of Behavior Change. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Never a truer word spoken…

Hi, readers how’s it going?

I’ve not been writing for some time now. It’s odd how despite writing being one of the biggest loves in my life I go through periods where I have nothing to say, no words to type and can go ‘silent’ for months on end. I’m not saying I’m back now, cause this may just be a one-off update post, even I don’t know at the moment.

So, why the title? Well it’s like this…. Continue reading

Recovering from BPD – Self-sabotage and heading for another crisis

BPD Objects

BPD Objects (Photo credit: Vinally2010)

I was doing well, my recovery from BPD was progressing, so I told myself, but recently I noticed that something wasn’t quite ‘right’ and as usual identifying what exactly was wrong was hard.

I think I may have been lying to myself for a while, I think I may have been masking again. Falling apart inside, outside appearing to be doing well. I think I am self-sabotaging…

I have been slowly picking at trying to work out exactly why I am slipping off the recovery tracks and what has caused this, then yesterday I was replying to an email I had received from someone about BPD and as I wrote my own situation started spilling out and I had a realisation about what is going wrong and why…

This is what I wrote in that email (details of the other person not included)… Continue reading

My life… A portrait in fiction

She stumbles and falls… she picks herself up, dusts herself off and continues ploughing forward. Steady determination but heavy heart and tear streaked face. Continue reading

Still alive! and back from Holiday early

English: The Walls of Dubrovnik with the Minče...

The Walls of Dubrovnik with the Minčeta Tower. Dubrovnik is the capitol of the Dubrovnik–Neretva County, in Croatia. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Yes, I am still alive and kicking, here and well…

I was on holiday this week, I say was because I came back early, I’ll explain that in a moment. First I just wanted to apologize for the emptiness of my blog of late, I cannot and will not promise that there will be a return to daily posts as my life just does not feel like it is moving that way currently, but for now I am here and will post as/when I have something to say/share.  Continue reading